| Monday, April 24th, 2006 |
| 5:35 pm |
Strong Cold...
After comming back from this job trip the weather was a bit windy and i had a shower then i left home and i had a "Cold". the first day it was a bit bad but it gets worse worse yesterday. I did not leave home at all since it was cold outside and i was not that healthy. today i come only to contact my friend and her any good news and i am fed up with the bed Current Mood:  sick |
| Saturday, April 22nd, 2006 |
| 12:20 pm |
I am back home...
My trip is over I went for that trip which took almost a week and i signed my presence in my High School well in the begining I was too stressed and regreted to come back to morocco at all because I did not find the first responsibles in my job and a very small ( Thing ) person in the academy of education by making me responsible for not starting the job early but i treated him badly to stop him. Later i met my direct head master and the Delegue of education as well as the director of the academy of education. These were really high level people and they were too polite. Anyway, I was promissed many posts of work including teaching in my high school, in a technical high school and the best choice was to be a teacher at the CPR (RegionalCenter of Pedagogical studies ) that is; to be a teacher of teachers of English.All these choices have both advantages and disadvantages and the decision is really difficult for me to take. Now I want to buy a car because i hate traveling by bus or train.Also i am looking for a house to settle in as it is not my home town Still i am looking for the opportunity to go back to Japan and work there. This is the priority for me all the time Current Mood:  confused |
| Sunday, April 16th, 2006 |
| 1:28 pm |
Career Trip...
I am fed up with travelling... This is all i can say today before i leave to Agadir/a city in the south of Morocco. It is about900 kilometers far from my home town TAZA in the North East of the kingdom.the trip takes almost 14 hours. In this trip I will pay a visit to the ministry and to the academy of education.Moreover i will go to my ex place of work/ High school where I may go on working starting from next year I do not like to move I do not like to go anywhere OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOf I need a bit of stability Current Mood:  irritated |
| Thursday, April 13th, 2006 |
| 2:18 pm |
Japanese and arabic language....
Waw WAw Waw I am really really happy to hear my best japanese friend speaking Arabic I know how difficult it is for a NIHON JIN to speazk arabic especially the pronunciation but The pronunciation of my friend is so cute and i always insist on her to talk the arabic words she knows.she is cute and she becomes more lovely when speaking in Arabic.My friend also tries to write arabic and i do really appreciate her high sense of learning and insistance especially that she only learns from a TV program which she watches once a week wsith her mother. Good luck in arabic and I wish you will come to practice your language in Morocco Current Mood:  satisfied |
| 2:12 pm |
Holidays and holidays....
After comming back from Japan I am supposed to go to the ministry in order to know someything about my job and things related to my carrer but it is a bit delayed because in Morocco it is a holiday time.two holidays in fact: a religious holiday for two days because of the birthday of our Muslim prophet Mohamed.this holiday coincides with the spring holiday which takes a week too. I feel very lazy and unstable because so many things are dependant on these meetings at the ministry and academy of education..... I wish things will go in the appropriate direction as I and many people wish Current Mood:  lazy |
| Sunday, April 9th, 2006 |
| 12:28 pm |
Back Ache
I do not know why i do not feel very well these days: I have a severe pain in my back and it makes my life more difficult especially that i cannot sleep well at night. every day i have very nice time with my family but still I always wait for the time I get in contact online with my friends. Really it is a pleasure to hear my best friend s voice and hear their news.i feel very satisfied when I know that they are ok and in good conditions. Current Mood: sick |
| Friday, April 7th, 2006 |
| 1:24 pm |
Friends and Friends...
Language is really misleading sometimes: "FRIEND" is one of the vocabulary words that are used inappropriately sometimes. a friend is a person who manages to get into your feelings as well as your emotions... a friend is one who can understand what you want without mentioning it verbally... a friend is the person who sees your qualities and defects with the same eye.... a friend is a person you trust on your life... this friend is very dear to us; if s/he suffers you suffer; if s/he is happy you feel happy too.To be with this type of friend means to exist; and to lose him/her implies to be lost you yourself. On the other hand, there is a so called "friend" who is selfish and self centered; a friend who is complexed and is waiting for the opportrunity to hurt you and complain about your deeds and words... this "friend" should not be called a friend rather a " a person conditions put in your way" In fact when i was in japan I happened to meet the two types and I can admit that i really appreciate this real friend in the example of "Tomoko" and many other ones, and at the same time I met many "peoople" who I am really happy not to see and meet again.If i lose a friend I regret it all my life but to lose these types of people is really gaining myself. so I am really happy that I am still in contact with my friends.May "God" protect our friendship and let it live a s long as we are living. Amen Current Mood: peaceful |
| 1:02 pm |
Nice weather
Nice weather oh what a shiny day. This morning In Morocco It is really a nice weather:it is spring time and it is warm... I myself have a nice feeling and I am very optimistic about the future. I am online for one reason: to contact my best friend in Japan who I miss a lot but it seeems that she is busy or at work.wha a pitty I wish i could have found her and hear her nice voice and feeel her smile but it is ok i will come again and again Current Mood: hopeful |
| Thursday, April 6th, 2006 |
| 10:32 am |
Back home again
hello every body here i am again back: back in my family, back to you and to the journal .... I do really miss you all really I spent a funny nice crazy and interesting time in japan cause i met the most friendly people ever and the ones whose hearts are full of love and kindness.i do really respect you and i am sure we will meet soon again in Japan. Now i am enjoying my time/ holiday with my family and it is also very nice to meet them after thios very long time wish we can keep in contact every day Current Mood: calm |
| Thursday, December 22nd, 2005 |
| 2:04 pm |
chronology of death
The chronology of death For almost two or three months my father was not that healthy: he had some troubles in his stomach. In my summer holiday I took him to more than 3 doctors and he took a lot of medicines. The previous month was Ramadan and he insisted to fast but it was impossible because of his weakness. The second week of Ramadan he collapsed and they took him to the Clinic and he was hospitalized for a week. Friday 28 September 2005 I received an e mail from my wife saying that father is in a very terrible situation: he was in the last minutes of his life. I took the decision to fly to my country and meet my father before his death and try to save if I can do anything. Unfortunately I couldn’t find my ticket. I got the ticket at 11:30 of the morning of Sunday 29th and I arrived to Morocco in the night of the same day. I arrived home at 7 morning of Monday 30th and I saw my father. I told him here I have come to see what I can do for you. Do not worry about money or effort or anything I am ready to waste all my fortune for you. As expected he refused to go to the clinic and said that he is ok and he doesn’t need anything. Few minutes later he called me and said: “if you want to do a favor to me you can take me to the public bath (In Morocco there is a public bath like the SAWNA or 温泉of Japan, we call it steam bath too). I want to be well cleaned and feel warmer and warmer… ” (Father said) I took him that night and I cleaned him well and I felt how comfortable he was. It was a great feeling for both of us… He slept that night and he got up in the heart of the night and wanted to drink some milk. The morning of the following day (October 1st /Ramadan 29th) at midday I was in his room reading the Coran for him. Once I left the room to bring a CD I found that he threw a lot of blood from his stomach and I panicked. I screamed and started cleaning him. He still insisted on refusing to eat or go to the hospital but I insisted till he promised to go the following day. The blood he threw up was like an alarm or sign for me and I decided not to leave him for any moment. Of course many visitors come and go as he was too popular and a lot of people love him so much. Since it was Ramadan, at about 5:30 pm we gathered in another room to have the first meal that day which was a Tuesday 28 Ramadan and one of the sacred nights in our religion. Anyway, after we finished our meal he called my elder sister and asked her to change his position and leave the light on… he also asked her for some drinking water and she noticed that he drunk much and wanted more. It was night prayers, I went to him and asked about his health then I took his permission to leave the house for few minutes to go to the mosque as I said before it was a sacred night in this sacred month/ Ramadan. Ok I left but my mind was busy with him and I could not concentrate. So I decided to go back home. In fact I entered and saw him in his bed… I was planning with my elder brother about where and which hospital to take him in the following morning while my elder sister came and said “ come on Karim. He (father) calls you and asks you to read some verse of the Coran because he feels his heart beating rapidly and strongly…” we were scared and the home became in emergency, they called all the members of the family while I and my brothers and sisters were with him reading the Coran for him. I was sure he is dying but still could not believe it. He asked me to call my mother in order to come near him, when she was close to him he took her hand with his right hand while I was taking his left hand. I saw him breathing with a great difficulty, he started to rub his breast softly saying ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH meaning God God God… then his eyes were fixed on the sky and I felt his hand which I was touching loosing power. He breathed three times then I could say I saw or I felt his soul leaving this world. I do not need to say that it was a shock but it’s more than anything words can describe. It was a great loss, a great catastrophe … but at the end we say: we all belong to God and we will all go back to him. |
| Wednesday, December 7th, 2005 |
| 12:16 pm |
Japanese people in emergency cases
You should never believe all what you hear about Japanese people that they are materialistic or pragmatic or… they are real human Well If only I give the example of what tomokko and her family did it would be enough for justification. But an other aspect of it was Professor Sumitani, a Japanese professor of French at Osaka university, he is only a friend to me but in fact a friend who is maybe better than a brother. This professor is always by my side and he thinks about my affairs and my health as if he does for his children or family. When he knew my problem he did not hesitate to call me and propose what kind of help he could give. Of course I was haunted by the idea of finding a plane ticket. From his house he kept contacting me and agencies to find a flight for that night but it was impossible since it was Saturday and the night. The following morning he called me at 8 morning saying that he will come to pick me from my house and go to look for a ticket. He surprised me when he told me to take my suitcase cause we will go to the airport and maybe we can find an urgent ticket. In fact he drove me to the airport and he kept contacting agencies in a way that maybe I cannot do it for myself. The tickets were super- expensive but he told me to go. He even paid my ticket by his visa card and he did not like to get money from me at the moment saying that I would need that money in Morocco and trill I come back I would pay him back. I never saw a person like that he took care of everything and he is a professor who had only that weekend to have a rest... and most of the times Japanese professors are not that modest but this was an exception. He kept with me till the last moment I took the plane and he kept insisting on giving any help without any complex or timidity. To him also I only have to say Thank you very much and I do not forget your help as long as I am alive. Its thanks to you that I managed to meet my father for the last time in his/my life Current Mood: thankful |
| 12:13 pm |
Tomoko Yamada
I no longer need to call her by any anonymous name or even a friend or a class mate… no I will say the human, the sister, the mother, the everything and everyone for me. Unconsciously, and immediately after my family’s mail and the bad news I found myself dialing her number and calling her in the middle of the night telling her that I had a problem and I was going to check for a ticket to go back home. Of course she found my message and called back as soon as she got it and she started checking in Internet for a ticket though it was a week- end. I was surprised to hear her knocking the door of my apartment and starting to tell me about the different possibilities. Nobody can imagine how much strength she gave me then and she kept calling agencies from her own mobile. By the way she was supposed to have a job that morning but she cancelled all. The other surprising thing was when her father called her asking about how things were going and she admitted that she is in my room cause she already had his permission. Her mother too was checking and they were ready to pay the ticket at the bank cause I was far from any ATM bank, Her mother was very active to the extent that she called the travel agency and yelled at them to be so きびしい about the time and way of payment. Of course we did not get that ticket. Tomoko san kept supporting me till I went to Numba And met my friend. Its thanks to her that I ate something and she as well as these friends tried to convince me that nothing harm will happen and she or they managed to make me forget for a while my problem Note * One very important information about tomokko san and her family is that they know I am married and I met her father. Also Tomakko san knows my wife and my child and she saw their pictures and watched our wedding ceremony. I say this to show that all what she or they do is not for any thing but cause of kindness. I’m really indebted to her and her family and I still do not what to do in order to be able to compensate for some of their kindness. To you Tomokko and to your family I say I RESPECT YOU and I will never forget about you. The spiritual love is the eternal one Current Mood:  exhausted |
| 12:03 pm |
Bad news
sorry its tto late Well it is good to plan to do many things in advance, but in the Islamic religion/ the Koran there is a clear statement about this saying: Never say that I will do such and such things tomorrow unless God wills it. I did have so many plans for the last two days among which I can cite the following: 1/ A trip to Shikoku island with the international students center for Sunday and Monday 2/ Meet Azzam and Kei San in Namba for a night for fun 3/ go and encourage my best friend in her Flee market while the school festival 4/ celebrate her birthday in a crazy way that she would never forget…. All these and other plans were banned because a short but not simple e mail from my family in the hearth of the night saying “Your father is dying…” and I know how bad his situation should be in order that they dare to say so. Anyway from that time I feel my mind stopped working and the only objective was to find a flight ticket to Morocco. And I did go. This paragraph is written from the bus in Morocco while I am in my way to my hometown Note: even if the date of writing is recent, the news was written earlier but too busy to update the journal Current Mood: depressed |
| Tuesday, October 18th, 2005 |
| 3:00 pm |
Trip to Toba After coming back from my country, of course the school had not started yet and it was still hot and humid in Japan. So me and my best Japanese friend have decided to travel abroad: we thought about Thailand, Corea and China but unfortunately it was not possible cause we should have made a reservation earlier than that time especially in that high season. As usual me and my friend want to challenge and did not like to give up and started to check for some offers through travel agencies inside Japan and finally we found a nice trip to Toba on the 30th of September2005. It was unbelievable cause we spent splendid time in a hotel on the sea shore, we could see the sea from inside our rooms of course with very おいしい(delicious) food and おんせん and サウナ. We went to Mikimoto pearl island and I bought a nice present to my wife. Also we went by boat around the island and it was really fantastic. In the night, we fad a royal dinner in the hotel’s restaurant cause we were late in the Onsen(even if the staff were uncomfortable about our being late but we enjoyed eating lonely and all the staff waiting for us) Isn’t it worth doing? In the night we went near the sea and it was really quiet and we enjoyed looking at the sky but for a sudden we were surprised to hear the sea “Hurling” and a strong noise of the wave which came up and made us wet. I admit that we were frightened even if my friend kept laughing at my reaction. The following day we went to park Espana and we had a nice time. By the way my friend got 5000円 in a lottery and we had nice food too. All I can say about it is “Thanks my friend for such a choice….you were and you are always dear to me, I respect you and I am lucky to know a person like you” Current Mood: relaxed |
| 2:57 pm |
Responses to my complaints about the teaching method
It is true that Japanese post-office services are among the best all over the world but I never expected that news can fly and reach the biggest numbers of people as I noticed in the case of my remarks and complaints about the teaching mistakes. All my friends in the department of English were aware of it and started asking me about it. Even the sempai students who are not usually at the university and do not participate in the project knew about it. Also the professor started this topic with me saying I heard you complained about it… Of course the professor herself was surprised about what I told her and she almost totally agreed with the points and issues I raised about the project. She promised to make some changes and she told me “ just say what you want and how you want it….”she herself was surprised about the behavior of the MR repetition sensei. The best of it is that she lately in the same afternoon called the vice of the school and told him the remarks. They both told me that things are going to be modified and we will work as we want not as is planned for us by unqualified people. They discussed the case of the MR repetition teacher and said that he feels he is a bit better than the others and it was a good opportunity to show off in front of us. I had a fruitful discussion with my sensei whose reaction was very encouraging and she gave me new breath to work more and more. I was comfortable after our meeting especially when she said “ we still need you here and it is a good idea to think about making your period of study longer…. We have to recommend it from the governments and see…” the suggestion is very appealing but I still feel unable to take a decision about it. What do you think: shall I stay longer or is it enough to go back home? I wait your suggestions Current Mood: satisfied |
| 2:50 pm |
One day teaching kids in Kitateshima school
Early in the morning, with nice suits, umbrella (cause it was heavily raining), and a BIG lesson plan of course with a lot of disappointment… we arrived to the elementary school in order to start teaching or assisting teaching or solve other people’s teaching problems ….!!!??? Anyway, the first class the homeroom teacher started her lesson and I personally was like one of the children trying to discover the lesson cause as I said earlier I did not know even the new vocabulary to be introduced to children. The surprising point in it is that the teacher did not did not take care of time and she finished her lesson including all the activities in less than 30 minutes and she had almost 20 minutes left with no activity. She was lost and started asking us if we have any thing to do or teach in her “left over” time. We managed to divide the students into 4 groups and did the drilling and practice in a different way, then the students had the opportunity to ask me some personal questions about me and Morocco thus we could over pass the problem. The rest of the classes we changed our strategy and we started to be the main teachers and the homeroom teachers were only to support us. All the lessons were successful cause the teachers were female except one class whose homeroom teacher was a MAN/ male but he neither taught nor left the floor for us to teach. I gave him a nick name MR repetition sensei very simply cause when ever I or any of the assistant teachers gave an activity he stopped us and repeated the explanation of the same thing but in a strange way. We were all surprised and he wanted to show he is the best. OK but I could not imagine a review of the previous lessons vocabulary to be repeated more than 4 or 5 time… Anyway we did the job not as they wanted but as we wanted it to be and I left the school alone. Even if my friends were annoyed that I did not know the way to the station since I am not familiar with that place but I happened to ask two very beautiful girls who went with me till the station and I arrived safely to my house. * The funny thing about it is that my two friends were worried maybe I would be lost but from Tuesday till Thursday they did not even email me and we met on Thursday in the university they asked whether I was not lost. Of course I was not and the justification is that I was with them, in the university. I don not know is it that I think too much or people do not think at all? Current Mood: confused |
| 2:48 pm |
The Elementary school teaching experience/ clash
In our department, the professor is making a project of teaching English language to elementary school teachers and she asked us (all the students) to assist her and teach in Kitateshima school. Of course all the students responded positively and started with a great enthusiasm even if it is a tiring experience and the school is too far, so it is efforts, time and money consuming/demanding but I really appreciate every body’s sacrifices. The problem is that all these efforts seemed to me worthless and a waste cause neither the elementary school students nor the teacher trainers or the elementary school home room teachers would benefit from it simply cause it was done in a wrong way. I was suppose to teach the 3rd and 4th grades with the participation of two of my friends from the same university. So we met in a rainy day of Ramadan (fasting month for Muslim people) in order to discuss the lesson plan. In fact it was not a lesson plan simply cause it was full of anti pedagogical errors the first of which is that it was made by other “teachers” in order that we will teach it the next day. Also the activities and the vocabulary were kept a secret till the last moment inside the class room and In some courses I was supposed to be the main teacher but most if not all the activities were planned to be done by the home room teacher…. In front of all these remarks I was really nervous and I had a strong reaction to it and I started complaining about the way English is being taught in general and this project in particular. I said everything and I promised to stop taking part in this project at all. In fact I was not blaming my friend who was with me in the meeting, no simply because she is in the same POOL with me and she had no responsibility but I was surprised to find that ; maybe but sure; she miss- understood. The same evening I received a call from the coordinator of the program and I complained to her. She agreed that there are some drawbacks and said she wants to help me in order that I can work in comfortable conditions. I appreciated her kindness and promised to go to the lessons and do the best efforts provided that I will discuss the issue with the main professor. Current Mood:  crazy |
| 2:46 pm |
The school starts
On the third of this month the courses were supposed to start at Osaka Kyoiku University but unfortunately it was a “sick” start since everything was mixed and every one was confused. There are a lot of changes in my timetable and I decided to take more but different courses. I start a class of computer programming and HTML language and home page making with Sato sensei; he really deserves the title sensei since he is kind, he has a good pedagogy and every class with him is beneficial…unlike some other classes which were and still are a waste of time. I was the only one in my class to e chosen to a high level class in Japanese language studies. Though it is challenging for me, cause I m studying with people who are majoring in Japanese and have studied it for more than 7 years, I feel it’s a good and honoring experience. Current Mood: curious |
| 2:44 pm |
Trip to Toba
Trip to Toba After coming back from my country, of course the school had not started yet and it was still hot and humid in Japan. So me and my best Japanese friend have decided to travel abroad: we thought about Thailand, Corea and China but unfortunately it was not possible cause we should have made a reservation earlier than that time especially in that high season. As usual me and my friend want to challenge and did not like to give up and started to check for some offers through travel agencies inside Japan and finally we found a nice trip to Toba on the 30th of September2005. It was unbelievable cause we spent splendid time in a hotel on the sea shore, we could see the sea from inside our rooms of course with very おいしい(delicious) food and おんせん and サウナ. We went to Mikimoto pearl island and I bought a nice present to my wife. Also we went by boat around the island and it was really fantastic. In the night, we fad a royal dinner in the hotel’s restaurant cause we were late in the Onsen(even if the staff were uncomfortable about our being late but we enjoyed eating lonely and all the staff waiting for us) Isn’t it worth doing? In the night we went near the sea and it was really quiet and we enjoyed looking at the sky but for a sudden we were surprised to hear the sea “Hurling” and a strong noise of the wave which came up and made us wet. I admit that we were frightened even if my friend kept laughing at my reaction. The following day we went to park Espana and we had a nice time. By the way my friend got 5000円 in a lottery and we had nice food too. All I can say about it is “Thanks my friend for such a choice….you were and you are always dear to me, I respect you and I am lucky to know a person like you” Current Mood: relaxed |
| Friday, September 16th, 2005 |
| 2:11 pm |
Back in Osaka
September the 13th was the date of my return to japan. I left my family and friends in Morocco and it was a bit depressing especially Walid my lovely child .It was a hard time to tell then see you cause we had a fantastic time together. the trip was a bit tiring cause it was long but everything wes ok since I found my fiend waiting for me in the airport and it was really a great feeling. she is an excellent friend who made me love my life in japan.I spoke a lot about here, and all my Japanese nice friends with whom I have a good relationship, to my family and my friends in morocco. of course my room was a bit dusty and with the help of that friend it is now the cleanest.we were very tired after but since we did the cleaning in a funny way we enjoyed irt a lot. from here I say to my friend i like you and i respect you so much. Current Mood: satisfied |
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